Its been a while since Ive written a blog, actually, its been a while since Ive posted a blog. I literally have 41 unfinished blogs. And recently Ive realized that Ive been taking a million paragraphs to explain whats going on with my faith right now. But I think in the past few days, I can sum it all up with a question that I think every Christian should ask themselves: Are you putting your identity in Christ or in Christianity?
They are two different things. And when you answer honestly, it can get pretty scary. For me, Ive been putting my identity and hope in Christianity. I know what its like to put it in Christ because I have in the past and it was incredibly freeing. But when you put it in Christianity, it becomes a enslaving mindset. Because when you put it in Christ, the opinions of man dont matter anymore.
And they sent their disciples to him, along with the Herodians, saying, Teacher, we know that you are true and teach the way of God truthfully, and you do not care about anyones opinion, for you are not swayed by appearances. (Matthew 22:16 ESV)
Its especially hard when you are in the public eye. Ive recently really understood why a lot of Christian celebrities keep their faith very surfaced. The biggest reason is because it very well might be surfaced and shallow. But the second reason is because even if they genuinely serve and follow God, anything they say about God will get ridiculed by other Christians.
Dont believe me? Anytime someone brings up their views on Calvinism, alcohol, rated R movies, baptism, tongues, healing, doubt, Bible translations, etc. to a large number of Christians, theyll get crap. And the bigger the number the more crap theyll get. Ive posted Bible verses on twitter or my blog and people had a problem with the translation I used (even though it was a word for word translation and not a paraphrased one).
I wish I could say otherwise, but Ive let it affect me. Maybe its because of my own insecurities or pride that focuses on the one negative comment instead of the hundred encouraging ones. Because I want to convince that negative commenter that my faith is real and genuine. And I think thats when it stops being real, it starts turning into wanting to please people instead of God. I need to focus on doing what I know is pleasing to God what truly is drawing me closer to Him. If Im truly, genuinely living my life to please God, everyones opinions of how I do that shouldnt matter.
Haha, after I wrote that last sentence I got in defensive mode. Because I know how someone can misread that. But for the sake of someone learning from this, Ill explain. If you are honestly trying to please and serve God, a friend that gives you rebuke or correction in your life will be accepted by you.
If Im working on being the best filmmaker that I can be, a huge part of that is making films that I enjoy, being happy with the films I make and working at improving the next one by learning from my mistakes. And though there will be people that dont enjoy my films, I need to not worry about them. But if a friend or fan that does enjoy my films comes up to me and tells me how I can improve that, Ill gladly accept their advice. Because there is a big difference between advice and opinion.
I hope that makes sense.
The past few months has been God teaching me how much my foundation is based on Christianity and not Christ. Christianity is the rug Ive been standing on and He pulled it out from underneath me. And in these months there have been times of confusion, bitterness, doubt and especially a lack of understanding of whats going on and why. The one thing that I needed to realize is that when my foundation is on Christ my life will truly be free. Because when it was on Christianity, it started to drain me.
In the end, if there was anyone who sees me as a Christian, I want it to be Jesus who does.
Galatians 1:10 For do I now persuade men, or God? or do I seek to please men? for if I yet pleased men, I should not be the servant of Christ.